Connected

When is being connected an obsessive compulsion? I am sitting at Starbucks, wanting to just come in and read, but decided to pull my computer out also...just to check my email real quick. I forgot that the server at work is being moved this weekend, so I can't check that email account.

Ever been overly frustrated by something so small and pointless? I can't check my email. That isn't my only email, I have a Yahoo account too. Plus I end up using my Facebook account and MySpace account to stay connected to a lot of people. So, how is it that I can become so annoyed by just 1 of my many forms of communication being shut down?

I think the internet these days is making a lot of us obsessive compulsive. I am more guilty of this than almost anyone else! I leave my computer on most days while I am at work...I will stay logged in on my computer, even when I am in another part of the house doing something else. Why do I do that? Am I really this committed to work? Doubt it.

Somehow, it feels like if I log off...if I shut down my facebook for the next few hours, I will miss something big. I will look to see who is online sometimes...wont message those that are online...just wondering who else is on. Weird.

I am left to believe that the whole reason I stay on has to do with being connected. Somehow having my computer online offers me at least the illusion of connectedness at that moment...and it makes me feel good. I can't explain it, doubt I am alone it in. I wonder if our parents ever thoughts about these things or if this is a condition limited just to our WWW generation.